" Do as u please its not my job to kill you"

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:46:25 GMT

jesus christ look at that . that picture of me is so funny . it occured to me today i hadnt done anything with this in a while i hadnt remembered it was almost 2 years ago geez . so here is where im at today . everything is ok . im confused about some things .in my life but they will get broke or fixed in time im not worried about . it . i finnished my cd send a few copies to people if you are one of them send me a " it was the worst cd ever worse than gary numan with horns " oponion lol . ive started writing more songs . but i keep hitting walls and headaches abound umm i believe thats it . for now .

stuff .........

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 05:18:17 GMT

ok so it reacently hit me that ive been with out alot of baggage i was carring for over a year . i guess i hadnt thought about it sence that ill fated breakdown . i feel better . cleaner , happier , less nuts ( ok ok just a new nuts ) oww and healthier . so this is a good thing . im glad the self inflicted drama is over .

musics coming along well . started working with some one there in production-opinion . mode . its working well . i wish i could play hardwear synths better than i do . things would be easier .

me and heather ar still getting along fine no arguments of consiqince . ( just her pouting becouse i said she was cute like snorks . lol . god that show sucked . )

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 22:21:46 GMT

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Wed, 19 Oct 2005 22:16:33 GMT

You are a Self-Discoverer

You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality.
Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine.
You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion.
You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

the meaning of life and everything .

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 22:08:19 GMT

just kidding

so ive been working ,going to class , and watching as ass load of movies . zombie horror shot in the day time is not a good idea by the way . im trying to get re motivated to write songs . but its just not happening . of course i havent done anything with the ones i have maybee i should just release the cd in cdr form . (that i can afford ) . let me know if u have ideas .well im in class so i need to go . bye

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 08:55:49 GMT

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You tend to give more than take in relationships.

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You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

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Mon, 12 Sep 2005 08:48:56 GMT

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You are dependable, popular, and observant.
Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.
In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.

You are unique, creative, and expressive.
You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.
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Mon, 12 Sep 2005 08:45:33 GMT

Your Birthdate: May 10

Your birth on the 10th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life.
The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated.
A birthday on the 10th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.

This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush.
You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.
You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

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things......

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 04:56:52 GMT

i have rejoined the workforce . ( well kinda) i work at a video store . not very often . but i do have a job again . lol . ive also started taking some classes at fotech . nothing massive . but im consedering trying to actully go to school for real . the band well its kinda just there at the moment busy with other things . but soon ill head back at it . friday was mine and heathers 1 year anniversry and that is where im at now . lol

hummmm

Sun, 08 May 2005 22:01:43 GMT

ok so i went and saw my former band play last night . it was a adventure . . how many times can i hear " i didnt think u would show up " what am i a child . geez people . owww and having someone go " i didnt know jeremy wasnt in the band anymore " and a member going " shuuushhh shuuush " really pissed me off . im not def people and the fact that u were going shush just makes u look stupid . uuugh . anyway all in all it was ok .

so tommorrow is vnv nation with imperitive reaction . i cant wait . oww and tuesday is my birthday ( lets forget i sayed that : ) )

so i hope to see everyone soon .

oww and tonight the hotest man alive playes elvis im so glued to the tv later maybee with a erection . lol

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 17:54:25 GMT

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Tue, 22 Mar 2005 15:35:44 GMT

hummmm how are things .

well my moms surgery went ok . shes home and as bitchy as ever . lol . so thats great .

as far as music goes . im gonna put a hold on werking on the cd . mostly so that i can werk on playing live i think it would be good to play live first . so that when im ready for recording my timing is better .

a certion person is still anoying the shit out of me . why cant some people admit when there wrong . and what they did was fucked up . i admit my mistakes in the situation jesus . why cant they . oww well .

so anyway . this weekend is heathers birthday so friday we are going 80's dancing at the breakfest club in charlotte friday . so if u wanna see me be there lol .

i think thats about it . i wish u all well even my enimies .

peace , love , and hair spray

everything

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 18:52:50 GMT

hummmm ok . i really dont have alot to say .

my new project is going well . im werking on the songs slowly and carefully .i hope to be done with atlest 5 songs by late april . but proble will have like 15 done by than knowing me .

after that its a matter of putting together a live band . uuuggghh the headache that will be . and doing shows .

on a personal note i have learned alot about who my freinds are in the past month , ive known of people that claimed to be my freinds talking shit about me when i wasnt there for a very long time .but i let it go . but not again . im tired of the bullshit . and i really hate people that acuse u of doing something u didnt do . bassed on a phone # . thats not even yours . without evidence . or even talking to u . about it . heres a clue if u ask me and i did it i would say "yes " im not the cowerds some of u are .

uuughh anyway . thats it for me . bye

clockwerk

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 03:26:16 GMT

so i am no longer in clockwerk .

thats really all thats new . at the moment

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 22:57:22 GMT

hummmm

ok i went to dc with heather we stayed at her freind tori's it was relitivly painless drank at this shitty dive bar in baltimore . but it was 5 dollers all u can drink pbr . so it was cool . we saw vnv nation it was amazing ,new years i unexpectidly ran into my brother ( L ) it was cool . the next day i hung out with him again .

sence than i havent done alot been werking on demos for my new project ( no clockwerk hasnt disbanded )

i put the new project on myspace along with 2 demos hope u enjoy

the projects called " as all color fades "

i think thats it

love u guys

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 12:42:51 GMT

Death. So, you're the one who pushed the red button
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well done in doing what centuries of madman
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Thu, 09 Dec 2004 09:55:51 GMT

hummm so it appears that i am having to push the side project back some as u may recal i wanted to try to get it done around the first of the year as it stands . maybee by mid febuary at the earliest . thats what i get for enlisting help grrr . but i should have a better product . i hope . once a few of the tracks are completly done ill post them on myspace . ( after i make a page for whatever the project gets called )still arguing over that in my head

we had our fist practace for the dec 18th clockwerk show . tonight . it was good . we are playing 2 sets that night . and even doing a cover ( our first cover ) no im not telling u what it is come out and find out heehee . we are also resurecting a song we havent played sence the first show with joe onbourd ( in alice )

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 01:36:08 GMT

humm nothing new is really up . ive been asked to reprise my role in a low budget film . they are remaking it . aperintly the first version was so bad no one wanted to watch it lol . . and im one of only two peoplw being asked back . for the remake . im truely flatered by this . . ummm other than that nothing new is going on . video games . coffee . and programing . whoo hooooo !!!!!

hummmm

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 01:41:18 GMT

ok im ok . been werking on the side project hardcore . i think i enjoy programing to much lol . . i must go talk to u guys later bar becons me

i forgote some things

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 07:42:32 GMT

umm halloween . went to wherehouse . the bands this year sucked . but it was still fun i went as a youth group leader complete with jesus tshirt . lol .

im werking on my side project i have hope that it will be done by january .

THIS IS GONNA TAKE A WHILE ...........

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 04:58:32 GMT

ok i dont remimber when my last entry was .and im not in the mood to look really . so . here is whats been going on with me . in the past month ( october ) ive played 3 shows one with bella morte , one with oddstar , and eccentrik festival with oddstar , more machine than man , red all over , ego likeness , and RAZED IN BLACK . whinch meanes ive spent the mojority of my life that month in band practice . the show with bella morte was good we played rather well other than adam missing sequinces . oops . i was nearly flawless though YESSSS . the show sufferd from poor atendance due to lack of advertising .i liked hanging out with the bella morte crew again they are funny . even though andys a republican grrrrr . with them . came one of my x's that lives in the same town they do that was odd . i dont understand why someone can obsess over me . especilly when its been like 4 years . and im not that person at all anyway . the show with oddstar . humm the show went well . oddstar turned out to be really cool guys . i had been told i would hate there music . but as it turnes out it wasnt bad not really my cup o tea but good . our set was good . adam had the same problem . and joes guitar pedle went out during our last song . but still good . ok the festival . i had a lot of fun at it . and i hope to do it again next year .although i wanted to kill adam most of the time . he just kept reliying on me to do the everything . especilly stuff he should of done himself . grrr . and than he talked alot of shit . i almost went off on him but i figured that wouldnt help matters . our performance was good adam made the same mistake again . . oddstar was once again awsome to hang out with . . the singer for ego likeness was cool i talked to her for a bit . and i talked to romell from razed in black for a few minnets and got a pic with him . heehee hes so cute .im not shure when we are playing again .but i hope its soon and i really enjoyed having 3 shows in a month . living with jay , kari and brandon is good i have a lot of fun . although they do get on my nerves from time to time . mostly the unneatness that is jay lol . and brandons random screaming . lol . im seeing someone . her names heather and shes just as cynical and negative as i am . lol . she matches me for the smartass award . shes a huge dork just like me although the fact that i spent 68 hours of my life playing k.o.t.o.r frightens her we care alot for each other and that is good . but equaly as good is the fact that unlike my last relationship i dont spend every waking moment thinking about her . its a good middle ground i think . . the extremes that im used to . seem to turn out badly . weather i want them to or not . so far this middle ground is werking . i continue to get things done and and happy . yaaay i got to see the faint . it was amazing . all i can say there POLITICS : i dont wanna soend to much time on this lets just say im disapointed in america . this isnt the country i grew up in any more any country that hates fags more than war is a disapointment . i think thats mostly it lol .

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 03:11:51 GMT

so bella morte is friday .im starting to get stressed . and yea . this could suck . but it should still be fun . i just hope i remimber my lyrics lol . .

SHOWS

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 02:40:03 GMT

OCTOBER 8th

BELLA MORTE

CLOCKWERK

DJ MEATCAR

wherehouse
211 n patterson st winston-salem nc
9 pm
$ 5

OCTOBER 16 th

CLOCKWERK

ODDSTAR

dj meatcar

guest dj

morning dew
1047 burke st wibston salem nc
$ 6

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 16:28:49 GMT

CHILDREN OF PAIN
Knowing that all the other tribes are wrong and
that your true lord and master will rise and
only those worthy of it's company shall be
spared,the Children of Pain focus on the
Darkest side of Magic. there style is an
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default is goth however. the Dark Pagans
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Dark Leader.

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counting bodys like sheep to the rythum of the war drums

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 21:07:40 GMT

so yea this is me now . tired . hungrey and ill from allergies

yyayayyayaayyayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!!!!!

lol . ok . what have i been doing . i have slept alot . painted YAY !!!!! i havent painted in so long . its making me feel so much better heeehheee ive started doing abstract stuff again . currently using watercolor pencels . im shure i dont use them right but alas i dont give a fuck . heehee . i have started writing some music . so far its like electro without melody hahaahahah . but hay in honesty ive only done drum tracks . . but that might be all this is getting hahhahahahah . drums and vocals . . talk about stripping things down to the essentials . as far as the band goes . we hit a very bad point recently like so bad i didnt want to talk to adam or joe at all . they were both being asses to me and treating me like shit . but . last i saw them things were goood . aperintly people bitched at them both for the way they treat me . haaahaa . thank god for our freinds for without them this band probable would of desintigrated . by now . . we have started werk on the cd . well so im told . im not coming in to do vocals till all the music is recorded . we have got t shirts now there cute . our manager desighned them . so go to our web sight and order one . or come see us play and buy one . . umm living at jay and karis is going well for the most part i think . i have alot of fun . and . they dont mind when i hide myself in my room for days at a time . exept for my food and shower time . of course . ive been playing the hell out of KNIGHTS OF THE OLD REPUBLIC the last week or so . it is possable the most fun video game ive ever played . but im a dork . so a star wars based rpg is of course going to make me happy . i love the fact that u can be a sith . i know im earning dork point every second here . . umm thats it i think . i hope u are all well . i miss u guys .

owwww come see us play

oct 16 at morning dew with oddstar . dj meatcar and dj naharu ( i know i fucked that up lol . )

oct 23 at the eccentrik fest in raligh headlined by razed in black . ( yessssss im so exited . )